Monday, August 6, 2012 2:24 PM
Weird, I know. It's been so long since I updated but I feel like I need to at this weird hour when I'm supposed to be sleeping.
I miss him. It feels so simple. But it's actually really complicating. I wish I could uncomplicate things and be the way it was before. Sadly, I can't.
He told me that if there would be a time where our paths would cross again, he would take that chance again. But, I do not have confidence about this. I'm losing hope.
Everyday I ask myself. What if he's not. Coming back? What if all this is just to make me feel terrible for leaving in the first place? There are so many what ifs which I am asking myself everyday. Some of which I don't know how to answer myself.
Sometimes I feel that things have never change. It feels the same. He would buy me small gifts, be it food or anything and visit me at work, fetch me from mid valley and stuff. The only difference is that now, we are no longer called a couple.
I don't know what is happening with my life. It sucks and I have no idea how I'm Gonna amend things.
Hopefully he'll realize that he loves me and that is where our paths would cross again. I'd fight for him. But what is there to fight for if there is no one to fight for?
xoxo